when i think that life isn't fear

oh god :( you give me a trial again, why you give me a lot of problem in my life?
i want science class not social class, i want good score not bad scores like this, i disappointing my parents again. then my parents angry to me, i feel like i'm not worth to be their daughter.
i always proud of my score though its not good enough. but i still proud, i have a lot of friends who not proud of their scores, and always mock their friend who have bad scores. but they're now in science class, isn't fear?
i always hope and tell them that the smart person not always smart and the stupid person not always stupid, roda berputar seperti hal nya bumi yang berputar dimana orang yang selalu diatas akan merasakan betapa buruknya dibawah dan orang yang selalu dibawah akan merasakan betapa indahnya diatas, but it's has not accurred.now they are laughing at me, and they are happy above my sadness.
i was tired ya Allah, tired with this life, i'll give up. i dont know what i gonna do after this, all was crush.
but i have one chance to move in science class, i'm sure that Allah will give us a trial if we could through it.